添翅膀

在天上住了一群飞马，他们都拥有一对翅膀。唯独一只小飞马，他从出生起就只有一个翅膀。他时常被其他的飞马取笑，而飞马妈妈则非常自责，为此飞马妈妈请求彩虹天使为小飞马添上另一个翅膀。彩虹天使答应了但条件是必须以飞马妈妈的翅膀做交换。最后飞马妈妈牺牲了自己的翅膀来换取小飞马的幸福，但她却从此再也不能飞翔了。。。

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这个故事是我在一个校园演唱会听来的，当故事结束时听众们都很感动，而我，已在自己没察觉的情况之下泪流满面。。。那一刻，我好想家。真的很想回到家人的身边，只要是十分钟也好。。。总觉得自己很像故事里的小飞马，因为我身上的翅膀是刀马旦多年的奉献而换还来的。为了我和管家么，她放弃工作。我和管家么所去过的地方都比她多。从我进幼稚园开始，她很少去看喜欢的粤剧。虽然担心我的一切但却咬紧牙根撑了过去，最近的一次是我在实习期间必须在半夜回公司工作，她和高尔夫没说什么，只是叮咛我万事小心。在槟岛读书的日子也是一样，总在事发很久后才告诉我。就算担心我，但却不会说出口，因为不想增加我的负担。

其实高尔夫也牺牲了自己的翅膀来换取我和管家么的一切。他忍受思乡之苦到国外工作，归来时带给我们一家更好的生活，但代价却是一段陌生的亲子关系。他让我一心一意去念书，不用我像一些朋友为了学费和生活费烦恼，有些甚至必须半工半读。只要是我想做的，他和刀马旦大致上都会给予满分的支持，很少过问。那天吃饭时看见一个ASTRO的广告，讲诉一对父子的关系。这一次，我很自制，没流泪但却也克制得瞒辛苦。因为高尔夫很像广告里的父亲角色，他也许不了解我要的是什么，但却把我的生活打点得很好，甚至比我自己还好。也许我应该向ORKED的妈妈 (SEPET) 学习，因为高尔夫只要爱我们一家人就好了，了解是其次。。。
P/S: 写这篇blog时，我吓坏了两个 room mates, 因为我哭到很凶。不是伤心，只是一时感触，但感觉很好！

5 Things I Like About BK

there are people like Ahua & Aping who yelled at me n warned that I eat my lunch/ dinner before I start my work.
when there r problems, there r people like Abow who reminded me that: “ BK is not only yours, this is not your problem but it is OUR problem!”
there are Awi & Atiang who are willing to send me by their motor when I need a lift home in the middle of the night or I need immediate help to go to a far place.
there are people like Asee who are willing to stay back and do the work with me or people like Ata who volunteered to help me when I was busy.
when someone were “shot” by lecturers, there are people who will at least speak up or stand up and clear the clouds.



5 Things I Hate About BK

there are people who scold or criticized me when I volunteered to help
there are people who gave me a stab at the back besides pushing all the responsibilities to me.
there are people who don’t even appreciate what I have done but gave me a face like I have owe them a million ringgit
there are people who can’t do the job and disturb other people
there are people who dare to point fingers to other people when they are the troublemakers


# After what had happen in BK recently, I was deeply disappointed and hurt. So, I change my mind alas. I hope I can relax more & stop worrying too much for BK. After all, other people should be given the chance to grow up too. However, I must thank Biscuit, Asoon, Atine and others who trusted me and supported me when I was exhausted and frustrated. Thanks, without you guys I’ll never understand and stand up again. Thanks for being there!!! \(^_^)/