Sigh… unexpected!!

The trip to Penang was complicated. In terms of my job, I learnt a lot and found out the different sides of all my colleagues, of which some wud make me cringe or raise my eyebrows. In terms of frens, meeting up wiv them was an amazing experience, esp wiv mooncake girl’s family. she might not b aware of how the nite chat helped me to revive my spirit to work in the last day of the exhibition. It felt safe in her house. For the first time during the 6 day stay, I don’t hv 2 worry how others is gonna judge me based on what I say/dress, or bcome stressful and alert all the time when emergency happens. Hving a simple chat and breakfast gave me all the support that I needed. A confidence given by a fren that makes me understand I can work on anything that comes along the way. And I did.

And of cos, I didn’t miss the chance of meeting up wiv the person that I hv been looking forward to. I was a little disappointed when I found out we were not alone, but I proceeded on the gathering. After 20 months, I changed, he did too. And thank god, certain things remain the same, such as the comfortability of chatting wiv him, exchanging info and voicing different perspectives on frens and issues. At least, I felt the conversation flowed smoothly within us. Although I enjoyed the moment, I hv doubts as well. Was he disappointed of my choice to b who I wanna b today? Do I stay a chance 2 b more than frens for him? I hv no idea. And I know I need time 2 figure out.

Then, just when I thought I cud move on and return to KL, the situation got out of hand. The moment when I was leaving Penang bridge, I … I felt the heaviness in me. And yes, it felt so hard to breath. The whole journey was unbearable, absolutely intolerable. so, I made the decision 2 find out the answer I needed. And it ended up… he agreed that we can only be frens who enjoy each others company while chatting. Just that. the rest was history.

Later, boss told me that I’m one of the staff who is going 2 penang for the prize giving ceremony as I’m given another new task. Not that there’ll b any chance 2 meet him, yet knowing he’s situated at the same island as me, make things... different. Hope I ‘ll b able 2 survive the short trip.