betrayed

if u hv a choice
to know yr clients' decision by informing them what they need to know
OR
to keep quite and let them face the situation that u know eventually will lead to more problems
what will u do?

perhaps i'm stupid enuf that
i chose the former
the client is happy
but not my superior

i hv never thaught that
partnerships mean set up the other party who hold hands with you
pretend you know nothing and let them hit on the wall
make them miserable and at the end of the day
they can't leave without paying a big price

there is still a silly thing call conscience in me
and i just can't do it
call me stupid
but this is not the kinda person that i can deal with
so i'll do what i wanna do
i've never been so awake in my entire life

Asking Questions

i'm not a child who is inquisitive
it is always those ppl around me who ask the right questions
pretty simple
i don't think as fast as others do

during the best years in my life
i started hving doubts on wat i hv been learning
how come it is totally different from what i used 2 understand
why izzit far more than the opposite from the ones that i believe for years
everything seems shaky which spells fear in me
i hv no idea wat is the right thing 2 grasp on
i started asking quite a couple of questions
& get more confuse, depress & helpless

lately, i was told that
asking too many questions in relationship
might be the main reason of failures
although it shows the lack of confidence
feeling insecure is how i face the world
it might not be the right way 2 enjoy life
but i guess, i'll live wiv it, for now

望

那天重游槟榔岛
发现已变了你的领土
和你踏在同一片土地
感觉，似乎很矛盾
我计划办了要办的事后
能在最短的时间内离开
却在人海中东张西望
希望能看见你
就算只是那一下下

经过一天的劳累
我又回到自己的城市
尽管达成了目标
却似乎被窒息感淹没
也许是真的太累了
我告诉自己
这应该是最后一次了
最后，一次了