2/23/2008

Unexpected!!

I’m bored. I know. NOt bcos of the job. No. Its my personal life AFT work. Surprisingly!!!

For this new environment, I expect myself:

1. To be bloody bz at work, to work OT, or at least until 6pm.

2. To leave the company as soon as possible when it’s time to slide the card

3. To have problems with some ppl at work or feel lonely/left out when I’m with the group of colleagues

4. To have nasty housemates, at least a noisy, dirty or problematic one

5. To eat oily, tasteless, unhealthy outside food

6. To have sleepless nights cos there’s no air condition in the room


Instead, I found myself:

1. Indeed hving a hectic schedule DURING working hours. Yet, aft 5pm sharp, my ah head, superiors, and ALL the colleagues from diff departments who walked passed my seat keep urging me 2 leave. OT does not seems like a culture in the company although ppl r pro. And serious at work!

2. I really wanna stay in the office 2 read through the files since I hv loads of time. not that I hv 2 finish the work in a week, just that it’s a general company policy that does not encourage employees to bring them back home without the big boss permission. And, trust me, I really hv time aft work as I know there’s a lot for me 2 learn.

3. mayb I heard too much about office politics and met too many irritable homo sapiens back then, this group of colleagues are basically normal ppl who earn a living with the professionalism that they hv besides hving the “helping others is easing yrself” culture. And, its hard not to be their “kaki” when I love food and am able to understand every dialects that they speak.

4. sigh.. basically, both of my housemates r mature working women. One is in freelancing while the other is like working until late, WHICH means the whole condo unit is basically mine. Besides the fridge which I categorise as moderately dirty (I cleaned it liao!!) and the main tenant who always leave her unwashed dishes in the sink, the rest are clean. Another prob. is the usual tv channels r not working, yet I can watch dvds with the player. PLUS, there’s no internet connection.

5. this is the only thing that is real true la!! But, from next week onwards, I’ll start cooking, I DON’T CARE, I WANT MY OWN cooked FOOD!!

6. this applies only on the first day I moved in when I was getting use 2 the new pillow and bed. Since then, every day has been kinda trd (I hv no idea y on earth I’m trd!!) and the next thing I know whenever I open my eyes is the dangling sound of my wind chimes by the window and the breezy wind at 7:40am.


So, what did I actually do to survive the depressing week?

* I explored all the shops in the area

* Buying pirated dvds, video box sets, and cd and used them as much as I can 2 pass time

* Visit the cyber cafes at least 30min daily 2 check my mails

* Trying out all the possible restaurants to fill up my stomach and get myself motivated… I doubt oso la how far it can help

* Wash my clothes and mop the room aft dinner

* Read whatever I have, newspapers, magz and books

* Thinking of what to wear for the next day (gosh!! I actually hv time for this)


And of cos, for those who know me, I;m not that kinda ppl who’ll wait and rot till boredom kills me, so I’ve decided to:

* Join dancing or aerobics lessons. I hv found few studios and I will sign up and get involve latest by March hopefully. Obviously, I need 2 keep myself healthy and on par b4 any major events of the company, which require me 2 travel and work under pressure for 4 consecutive days.

* Set up a wireless internet connection 2 hv access on msn, utube, movies, anything!!!

* Volunteer in any non-profit bodies/orphanage/events. I hv actually checked the websites and solving my transport problem

* Attend some sort of talk, screening or theatre that I’m interested

* Do something for my lovely niece and nephew. I’ve discussed wiv my elder cousin sister, who is staying 20 min drive from my place, to consider picking me up aft 5:30pm so that I can play wiv the small baby and teach the mischievous devil in her primary homework (so that she and her hubby won’t be worrying bout the kids and the maid). My only demand is that she wud hv 2 send me home later. It’s absolutely foc and the kids r safe wiv me. No worries cos the whole world knows (not everybody unfortunately) I luv kids!! And frankly, for these kinda thing ar, I only suggest 2 offer help 2 a close relative who has a lovely daughter that knows the best time to call me “che che” instead of “da gu” (big aunt). ^_^ and u know, I love challenge. Aft all, I’ll b a mother in future, no harm experiencing it earlier, hoho!! Kids, no matter good or naughty ones, can cheer me up no matter what they do.

* Write. Such as replying bern’s mail b4 she starts her new sem (Yann’s idea) and building alphabets in my blog to stop mooncake girl from asking me (eg. wei, chabo, lu de si (aka to when) update yr blog, u know when was the last time u leave a word ar? ). Besides her and a few others who’ll check when they hv time (less than 3 ppl I guess), I wonder who actually read my blog oso la! :P

* Start planning my grocery list and the daily dinner menu. I need 2 regain the passion for cooking and playing with the combination of different food. I need 2 practise my skills.

* Look for empty units around me so that witch can consider living near me. Hving her is definitely good.

* This final one is deep. Which is to think if this is after all the life that I want, cos its my choice, and I’m merely complaining and grumbling less than a week of adapting 2 the new place and job. I know I need time 2 settle down. Fatty cousin brother oso said that.

2/12/2008

从昨晚至今,我的心胸就多了个洞。这一次不是因为失恋,不是因为被人背叛,也不是被家人误解,而是被自己一时的失手造成。没捉稳的代价是陪上多年的回忆,因为我亲眼看见自己的 external hard disk (EHD) 从掌心滑落跌在地上,正式结束为期一年的寿命。

去年回国与家人庆祝农历新年时,高尔夫委托朋友去首都买给我的。当时我坚持不换laptop,但memory已所剩无几,所以老爸才会出此下策。当我从管家么手中接过这份礼物时,那小子还叮咛我怎么fully utilise 的方法。之后,我开始正式累积我个人的memory

其实,EHD 里的东西称不上是高级机密档案或百年的藏书文库,但装的却是金钱和时间也换不会的回忆和礼物。历史最悠久的要数槟岛那三年的照片,有些是自己当学记时拍下的,有的是和朋友们玩闹时留下的。还有video clip,都真实地纪录我和系友们还有几位教授所共度的欢乐时光。当中有一个sound file是月饼妹当初办网上电台时收录的一个贺年节目,当初在布城收到然后把file 开启时,听见自己的声音的感觉是想哭也想笑,感觉那段日子离我好远。

接下来的照片包括理大的毕业典礼,布城的生活还有自己的下厨战品 (就算是不好看或很难吃我都会拍下,勉励自己再接再励),昆大的毕业典礼,A国里令我好奇的事物等。最珍贵的是那由扬,小本,鱼鱼和其他友人帮我办的24岁生日的video clip 除了这些,还有电脑装不下的各种软体,多年收集的歌曲,尤其是扬和小本给我的歌,有些甚至还没分类。还有Ed和模范拍挡给的几十部电影和电视剧,有些还没来得及看。

这些都见证了那5 年的岁月,纵然有欢亦有泪,我还是希望能保存下来,放在触手可及之地。这让我想起多年前看的 , Jim Carrie 学会了不管是多难熬的记忆,一定有它值得捍卫的价值。我,也想捍卫我的回忆和岁月。

换个角度自我安慰,也许这次的教训是一个sign,警惕我失去的只不过是身外物,重要的是记得曾走过的路,重视的人。来日方长,现在的洞也是一种累积。

2/11/2008

锐气

Since I came back, one of the things I often do while spending time wiv mom is chatting. And yeah, I mean really chatting, the line is something between a mom and a confidant, the mother side is heavier of cos, hoho!!! We chat about basically everything. She wud tell me about her opinions in issues that r circling around the relatives, brother (hers and mine), Chinese history, some of her readings that she can’t wait to share, healthy recipes & lifestyle, ect. As for me, I wud tell her about the time I spent in B. city, how I cooked while chuckling wiv frens, how I fought the chefs, how I woke up late 2 finish my weekly thesis report, ect.

And again, wenever there’s a conversation between 2 women, relationship wud somehow pop up somewhere. And yes, we do talk about relationship. And surprisingly, I find it natural to tell her things that I hv been keeping 2 myself for a long time, those things that only my closest frens or myself knew. This time, I found myself skipping my ex, prince 0.5, and some of the extras that created some whirlwind in my life. No, not bcos I choose to filter these people from mom. Just that I hv realised they are not important enuf for me 2 bring it up in the conversation. It was when I told mom about this person from my university years, that I realised I hv been keeping him deep in the heart, without even telling my close frens, until I hv to. It just came so natural that I mentioned about him, how I used 2 enjoy talking to him, how I was scared by the request that he made, and how I was calm wenever he was there.

“Where is this guy now?” mom asked.
“er… far I guess” Well, I wasn’t quite expect mom 2 ask this.
“You know, u can actually start keeping in touch wiv him and let things roll” mom added.
Whoa!! Mom actually said THAT!! I was…amazed.
“But leh, u r not ready la wiv yr mindset now. Wait till u start working and let the job brush away all your锐气 she added.

Well, although mom is liberal in bringing me up, she’s still a traditional Chinese lady. And if she knows how I lost all my锐气 aft the breakup wiv my ex, and I how understand from prince 0.5 that hving锐气 is not my fault, and how I later realise锐气 is where my enthusiasm lies, perhaps mom wud put it differently. Cos I hv told myself to never ever give up what lies in me, or else I wud lose myself and live soulless.

my demand is too high indeed, aft all,我要的只不过是一个容纳得下我的人。

2/03/2008

中字

高尔夫:嘿!你看,快下雨了。
刀马旦:对呵!。。。唔!你说下雨一定有一个界限,对不对?
高尔夫:(点头) 因为没理由整个森州都下雨嘛!所以这个观点理论上是对的。
刀马旦:(开始兴奋) 那你说会不会有天刚好我们的屋子就是那个界限?
高尔夫:这怎么说?
刀马旦:想像下雨时,我们的屋前是湿的,屋后则是干的。再不然就是屋子的左边下雨,右边没下!哈哈!
高尔夫:哇!这样的话我买字一定中!
坐在车后的lal:。。。。。。。。。

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晚餐

lal:喂!爸妈去了祖母家,我们就吃午餐剩下的炒面,然后我再煮些汤好吗?
管家么:(点头) 把面放进微波炉弄热就可以吃了。
lal:反正还有时间,我可以把面再炒一次。妈已经讲过很多次要避免用微波炉。(辐射对食物不好,吃了有损健康)
管家么:那你就要记得炒完面把炉子四周的墙壁都擦干净。
lal:什么?叫我做?
管家么:别指望我啦,都说了嘛最简单省功夫的方法是用微波炉。
lal:。。。。。。。

不久
lal:好啦!弄好了,快过来趁热吃!不要让我三催四请。
管家么:哦!(还是在做着他手上那些有的没的)
lal:再不给我坐下来吃是不是要我用暴力啊?
不用三秒那家伙乖乖地现身吃晚餐,也把我第一次做的汤全喝光。
呵呵!很赏脸哦!

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好人子女

红阿姨:听说您的女儿回来了?
刀马旦:对!
红阿姨:我嘛有个儿子,比她年长一岁,至今单身,继承家业,你。。。明白我的意思吗?
刀马旦:哎哟!拜托,说清楚点啦!同乡多年就直说啦!
红阿姨:我是说不如让这两个年轻人互相认识认识。。。别担心啦!我儿子是个好人哩!
刀马旦:我女儿也是好人哩!