Identity * expectation

I hv survived the probation period.
And more tasks are allocated under my job scope from now on.
Even until now, there r ppl who remind me that: yeah! u r real bc, but yr job doesn’t seem 2 b related 2 what u’ve learnt, except the communication part.

I wud still frown upon hearing this.
And I won’t pretend that my hearth doesn’t ache the moment I heard it.
wen more & more ppl r asking me the same thing, it can b real tiring, 2 take the effort 2 explain.
Until a stage when I start hving doubts on myself, y on earth do I end up here?
At this stage? In this particular position?

Back in uni, I used 2 hv doubts on where I’ll b heading to.
To deal with that, I managed to find out what I don’t want in my career & life.
Now, aft working for more than 3 months, I landed at some point of self-doubt again.
To face that, I found out what I can cope with,
what I can explore and what I can learn.
For real.
The results is indeed surprising.
Those things that I thought I hated, I hv the skill to deal wiv it now.

I won’t say I’m very bloody sure the direction I’m heading to.
Except that,
I believe...somehow
the skills and experience that I gain now, will be very useful later.
In what way? I hv no idea.
I just know lar!